Stupid Snow

Billings, Montana got enough snow yesterday to postpone my boys trip here.  Walter was suppose to be here today and now it won't be until tomorrow.  I lose a whole day.  Stupid snow.
It looks like it will be a beautiful weekend all but very cold.  Those coming from Southern California are in for frost bite.  They say the sun shines 362 days a year here in Klamath and it does.  Just some days it's only for 5 minutes. We don't get the rain that Oregon is famous for.  That's mostly on the coast.
So, I'm talking about the weather.  Wonder what that means?  I find myself analyzing all of my behaviors lately. Don't think anything has sunk in yet.  I've been too busy planning Walt's memorial and starting my new job, getting ready for lots of company this weekend.  It's all good.  Perhaps after this big weekend I will be able to let things go.  I feel like I need a good cry, but it just won't come.  That's probably my "controlling personality" taking control.
I have received so many cards and help.  The love that pours out of an envelope opened is amazing. I just can't thank everyone enough.
I talked with Social Security yesterday.  It's just so interesting how our government works.  I have always paid our big bills on the 3rd of the month when we got Walt's check.  I don't even have an appointment to find out what I will be getting or when until Dec. 3rd.  When I asked the guy what I do he just said " I guess you have to talk to your creditors".  Okay, what do I tell them?  I'm not in a real panic.  I will be okay when it all settles down.  I'm sure many have been in a much worse position.  My Walt always made a good living and therefore has a good social security check and I will get that so really no complaints.  It's just what you have to go through while in the middle of incredible grief.
So excited for all of the company to get here.  Wish everyone could be here, but I know that's impossible.  You are all in my heart and I will carry that with me this weekend.  Please, the prayers I ask for now are for those traveling to be safe.  Until next time, I love you all.