First off I have to tell you that right now Walt is having a massage, so lets not feel to sorry for him. Really, it helps him so much. Lots of tight muscles get some relief.
About two hours after I wrote the last blog on Sunday everything in our life changed. Walt was so pathetic. Weak, couldn't (wouldn't) eat. He went in his recliner and slept the afternoon away. The day was so emotional seeing him try so hard just to walk. I did a lot of thinking and praying and then I talked to my dad. He said things like "He's fooled the doctors for a lot of years. You've had a good long life together, etc." I started reasoning on the fact that we are trying to help him with this wonderful protocol that I truly believe has saved a lot of lives, but it can't be doing much for Walt because he can't do half of it. He was doing no juicing because he just didn't have room for it after everything else. I needed to face the fact that he has so much more going on than just the cancer that we didn't find out about in a very timely manner. Bad lungs, bad heart, diabetes. He has fought a long hard battle all through his life. Every time I would give him his mineral drink he would say, "That a chocolate milkshake?" So.............I checked on him. Still in his chair, slumped over and mouth open sleeping like a baby. I got in the car and drove to Dairy Queen. (This is where you say "Yea!!!!) I bought him a chocolate shake and a hamburger. He's still asleep when I get home so I set it on his table and the smell must have gotten to him because he woke up immediately. I told him it was a message. The message was that I wanted him to do what would make him happy. When he took a sip of the milkshake I told him that was my answer. We talked a lot, cried a lot, even laughed a lot, but in the end he has decided that he just wants to eat what he wants and let everything else take its course. The next morning he had his poached eggs (he gets stuck on something he really likes), and hash browns with sausage gravy. He has made many requests since then and I have managed to accommodate them. Food has always been such a huge part of our life and it makes Walt a very happy guy. He actually seems to have more life in him. We are still doing some things to keep the pain under control. So far still no drugs.
So I will keep everyone posted as to how things are going, but just know that at this time Walt has a big smile on his face and he just told me he could use another chocolate shake. Thankfully Amanda is here and now she is on her way to Dairy Queen.
Oh, the wicked witch was me trying to get Walt to down all of the nasty stuff. The old me is back and I'm already thinking about what I can bake.
Thanks again, and love to all.
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
Sunday, August 25, 2013
You Reading This, Walt?
So much to do and not the time to do it. Especially for Walt. He has such an intense schedule of what he has to do next that it's becoming overwhelming. Mostly because he spends so much time with his eyes closed. He is very weak and tired all of the time. We had a Skype phone conversation with the cancer researcher on Friday. It was 2 hours and 45 minutes of intense learning. Amanda took notes and Walt moaned because he just kept hearing more and more of what we have to do next. So very interesting and informative, but also a lot of work. Not sure how much of it we will be able to put into play as Walt is to tired and weak to do much of anything. I told someone the other day (probably Amanda, cause I tell her everything) that I write this blog with only one person in mind. The rest of you can weed through and hopefully get some understanding, but my objective is to try to keep everyone informed without embarrassing Walt. He is my main focus so not everything gets told here, but I am not trying to sugar coat things either. Every day is a struggle and it brings new trials. Just know that we are trying our best to do what we can to make life comfortable and happy. It's not easy to know what is best, but so far we have managed to keep Walt out of pain and he sleeps real good. Tomorrow we will get a chair for the shower (don't we all want an excuse to sit down and let the water run over us? Thanks Walt, now I can). He can't stand for long periods so that will help him.
We went to a gathering last night. Lots of good food and great company. Happy Anniversary Theresa and Dan and thanks for the fun evening. Walt was so happy to get out and enjoy the company. He especially loved the stuffed jalapenos even tho I took the bacon off.
We went to our meeting this morning, but it was a struggle. He couldn't remember how to tie his tie (this is just part of the weakness. It effects all parts of the body). He is very wobbly on his feet and looks so frail in his way over sized suit. When we walked in it just set the whole congregation into a tizzy (I like that word, tizzy. It's funny). Some who hadn't seen him in a while were a little surprised and the tears flowed. Well, I can manage if I don't see others crying, but I'm a goner when I do. What a chain reaction. But, Walt was overwhelmed (in a good way) with all of the attention he was getting. Brother's were dressing him (tied his tie) and sisters were kissing and hugging him. The love we both felt was incredible. The talk was beautiful about "Family Life That Warms Your Heart". My favorite part was when the brother was talking about different situations that might be hard to deal with. He used the scripture in Galatians 6:9 "So let us not give up in doing what is fine, for in due season we shall reap if we do not tire out". Think that will become my new favorite scripture. Don't want to give up.
We have so many wonderful friends and family. We are truly blessed and very comforted by all. Someday I will be able to "tell all" on the many different ways we have been helped, but for now just know that you are all helping with your prayers. Thank you and love to all.
We went to a gathering last night. Lots of good food and great company. Happy Anniversary Theresa and Dan and thanks for the fun evening. Walt was so happy to get out and enjoy the company. He especially loved the stuffed jalapenos even tho I took the bacon off.
We went to our meeting this morning, but it was a struggle. He couldn't remember how to tie his tie (this is just part of the weakness. It effects all parts of the body). He is very wobbly on his feet and looks so frail in his way over sized suit. When we walked in it just set the whole congregation into a tizzy (I like that word, tizzy. It's funny). Some who hadn't seen him in a while were a little surprised and the tears flowed. Well, I can manage if I don't see others crying, but I'm a goner when I do. What a chain reaction. But, Walt was overwhelmed (in a good way) with all of the attention he was getting. Brother's were dressing him (tied his tie) and sisters were kissing and hugging him. The love we both felt was incredible. The talk was beautiful about "Family Life That Warms Your Heart". My favorite part was when the brother was talking about different situations that might be hard to deal with. He used the scripture in Galatians 6:9 "So let us not give up in doing what is fine, for in due season we shall reap if we do not tire out". Think that will become my new favorite scripture. Don't want to give up.
We have so many wonderful friends and family. We are truly blessed and very comforted by all. Someday I will be able to "tell all" on the many different ways we have been helped, but for now just know that you are all helping with your prayers. Thank you and love to all.
Saturday, August 17, 2013
A Revelation
Okay, it's 2am and I can't sleep anymore. Turned off the light at 9:30 because I couldn't keep my eyes open another minute, but I guess 4 hours of good sleep is all I get for now.
The good news is Walt is sleeping like a baby and NO pain meds. That has been our goal for the week and it's working. I know I spoke of the fact that we are working on building up the good cells in Walt instead of attacking Murphy right now, but some of the information I've gleaned recently has truly been a revelation. We are not fighting cancer, we are repairing Walt's whole internal system. With the restoration of his inner workings the mess that is going on now will clear up on its own. Sounds like building up the immune system, but that's only the end result. Putting the body back in the correct balance so that the brain can communicate correctly and tell everything what to do to stay healthy is the main focus right now.
Right now I am working on a schedule. There is so much to do in a day that we have yet to fit it all in. We are changing some eating habits to get the most nutrients on board so that means the poached eggs have to go for now. Breakfast will consist of the Budwig diet of cottage cheese and flax oil. If it sounds gross believe me it is. But, Walt doesn't mind and I can put berries (blackberries are his favorite) and nuts in it. There is a whole chemistry behind this but I won't bore you with the details. Then the juicing starts (8 oz at a time every hour). Oh, before every meal is the Cellect (an amazing combination of amino acids, etc) and cod liver oil. There are a couple of other things that we have to do in a day, but that would be "to much information". One of the things that Walt has to fit in is sitting in the sun. This is a major part of his protocol. So amazing how we have been told for years to protect ourselves from the sun. So wrong. We need that natural vitamin D so much that it can actually heal us.
Yesterday Walt saw his doctor. Another amazing revelation. He has been on coumadin (rat poison) for years now because of his Afib. The doctor said it only has a 7 percent success rate for preventing strokes. 7 percent!! He had to come off because of all of the greens we are putting into him. That will thin his blood enough naturally. He had some tests last week and he is not anemic. Yea.
The kids were here yesterday. The boys took a nap and Amanda ran some errands for us and her. She came back with a surprise for the boys. She has been tying towels around their necks so they can play "super hero" and fly around the house. She found them actual capes with little masks. They were so excited. Thomas picked the black one (he's all in to being the bad guy) and Gavin got the red. Thomas says to Grumpy, "I'm the bad guy". Gavin walks up to Grumpy and says "I'm the baby". He's so funny.
So, we're still kicking. Time is a rare commodity these days. I have been so worried about some of the people that I go to see every month to have bible discussions. I had a friend (Thanks Theresa) go to see them and they were all so kind and anxious to see me again so that's a load off the mind. Another friend came to mow and weed our yard (I promised Bob I wouldn't mention his name. Oops.) It's so wonderful the support we get from you all. Just knowing you have a listening ear (by reading this) helps tremendously.
Thanks again for the prayers.
The good news is Walt is sleeping like a baby and NO pain meds. That has been our goal for the week and it's working. I know I spoke of the fact that we are working on building up the good cells in Walt instead of attacking Murphy right now, but some of the information I've gleaned recently has truly been a revelation. We are not fighting cancer, we are repairing Walt's whole internal system. With the restoration of his inner workings the mess that is going on now will clear up on its own. Sounds like building up the immune system, but that's only the end result. Putting the body back in the correct balance so that the brain can communicate correctly and tell everything what to do to stay healthy is the main focus right now.
Right now I am working on a schedule. There is so much to do in a day that we have yet to fit it all in. We are changing some eating habits to get the most nutrients on board so that means the poached eggs have to go for now. Breakfast will consist of the Budwig diet of cottage cheese and flax oil. If it sounds gross believe me it is. But, Walt doesn't mind and I can put berries (blackberries are his favorite) and nuts in it. There is a whole chemistry behind this but I won't bore you with the details. Then the juicing starts (8 oz at a time every hour). Oh, before every meal is the Cellect (an amazing combination of amino acids, etc) and cod liver oil. There are a couple of other things that we have to do in a day, but that would be "to much information". One of the things that Walt has to fit in is sitting in the sun. This is a major part of his protocol. So amazing how we have been told for years to protect ourselves from the sun. So wrong. We need that natural vitamin D so much that it can actually heal us.
Yesterday Walt saw his doctor. Another amazing revelation. He has been on coumadin (rat poison) for years now because of his Afib. The doctor said it only has a 7 percent success rate for preventing strokes. 7 percent!! He had to come off because of all of the greens we are putting into him. That will thin his blood enough naturally. He had some tests last week and he is not anemic. Yea.
The kids were here yesterday. The boys took a nap and Amanda ran some errands for us and her. She came back with a surprise for the boys. She has been tying towels around their necks so they can play "super hero" and fly around the house. She found them actual capes with little masks. They were so excited. Thomas picked the black one (he's all in to being the bad guy) and Gavin got the red. Thomas says to Grumpy, "I'm the bad guy". Gavin walks up to Grumpy and says "I'm the baby". He's so funny.
So, we're still kicking. Time is a rare commodity these days. I have been so worried about some of the people that I go to see every month to have bible discussions. I had a friend (Thanks Theresa) go to see them and they were all so kind and anxious to see me again so that's a load off the mind. Another friend came to mow and weed our yard (I promised Bob I wouldn't mention his name. Oops.) It's so wonderful the support we get from you all. Just knowing you have a listening ear (by reading this) helps tremendously.
Thanks again for the prayers.
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
Update
Last week was busy. We had a great time on the coast. Windy, foggy and cold, but it wasn't home and we got to eat some good food and have a great time with the kids.
Since arriving home we have been working on the new protocol for Walt. We spent time attacking Murphy, but when Walt kept losing weight I checked with the cancer researcher we have been working with and he said it was because we needed to work on building up his good cells. He said many people die of cancer cancer free because the cancer has depleted the nutrients in the cells that don't have cancer. So, Walt is on the Cellect/Budwig protocol. It consists of a lot of juicing (carrots, green apples and a green drink) and a lot of flax seed oil. It's work and not all of it tastes good, but I just keep reminding him that it's not chemo and he won't lose his hair.
We made it to our meeting Sunday morning. Walt and Gavin slept through half of it. We had a very good speaker and the Watchtower lesson was so good, but when you are almost 73 and sick or 2 years old and its nap time, it must not matter where you are, you just sleep.
We have called in Hospice. Now, no one panic. To most people Hospice means "end of life". That is not always the case and you can even "graduate" from Hospice. Of course, when the doctor tells you that you should call in Hospice then you know that it is serious. We are just trying to be prepared. We met with our contact person, Bonnie, Monday morning. Today Bonnie came back to get all of the paperwork signed and our nurse, Cindy and our social worker came. We don't have a great need right now, but Walt has been experiencing some increased pain so we want to stay on top of everything. Also, because of where the tumor is (at the opening to his stomach) it could take a turn for the worst very quickly. With Hospice we have 24/7 access to our doctor. He would even come to the house if Walt couldn't make it to the office (do you believe it? I thought "house calls" were a thing of the past). Anything we might need they can get for us. They are very kind and caring wanting to do anything to make Walt (and me) as comfortable as possible. He honed in right away to the fact that he can get massage therapy right here at home. Good thing for him cause I'm not good in that department. The really amazing thing is that they are all on board with our use of natural medicine rather than conventional. I have even been able to educate them about some of the things that I have learned in my research. Walt is loving all of the attention.
We are using some essential oils in our treatment (thanks, Thora). They really do work as far as having some calming effects. Good for sleep. The doctor wanted Walt to have an electric chair because he is getting a little unsteady on his feet. He has fallen a couple of times. The Hoveround has been here a couple of days and Walt is as crazy a driver in that as he is a car. (Just my opinion). I'm sure he will get better with practice. Got to get a ramp for the van.
That's enough for now. We are so grateful for the prayers and concerns. Guess it's not easy to make a comment here (got your card Joyce) and we understand that because it's only the really savvy computer people who have figured it out so not to worry. We are very happy that you care enough to read this. Love you all.
Since arriving home we have been working on the new protocol for Walt. We spent time attacking Murphy, but when Walt kept losing weight I checked with the cancer researcher we have been working with and he said it was because we needed to work on building up his good cells. He said many people die of cancer cancer free because the cancer has depleted the nutrients in the cells that don't have cancer. So, Walt is on the Cellect/Budwig protocol. It consists of a lot of juicing (carrots, green apples and a green drink) and a lot of flax seed oil. It's work and not all of it tastes good, but I just keep reminding him that it's not chemo and he won't lose his hair.
We made it to our meeting Sunday morning. Walt and Gavin slept through half of it. We had a very good speaker and the Watchtower lesson was so good, but when you are almost 73 and sick or 2 years old and its nap time, it must not matter where you are, you just sleep.
We have called in Hospice. Now, no one panic. To most people Hospice means "end of life". That is not always the case and you can even "graduate" from Hospice. Of course, when the doctor tells you that you should call in Hospice then you know that it is serious. We are just trying to be prepared. We met with our contact person, Bonnie, Monday morning. Today Bonnie came back to get all of the paperwork signed and our nurse, Cindy and our social worker came. We don't have a great need right now, but Walt has been experiencing some increased pain so we want to stay on top of everything. Also, because of where the tumor is (at the opening to his stomach) it could take a turn for the worst very quickly. With Hospice we have 24/7 access to our doctor. He would even come to the house if Walt couldn't make it to the office (do you believe it? I thought "house calls" were a thing of the past). Anything we might need they can get for us. They are very kind and caring wanting to do anything to make Walt (and me) as comfortable as possible. He honed in right away to the fact that he can get massage therapy right here at home. Good thing for him cause I'm not good in that department. The really amazing thing is that they are all on board with our use of natural medicine rather than conventional. I have even been able to educate them about some of the things that I have learned in my research. Walt is loving all of the attention.
We are using some essential oils in our treatment (thanks, Thora). They really do work as far as having some calming effects. Good for sleep. The doctor wanted Walt to have an electric chair because he is getting a little unsteady on his feet. He has fallen a couple of times. The Hoveround has been here a couple of days and Walt is as crazy a driver in that as he is a car. (Just my opinion). I'm sure he will get better with practice. Got to get a ramp for the van.
That's enough for now. We are so grateful for the prayers and concerns. Guess it's not easy to make a comment here (got your card Joyce) and we understand that because it's only the really savvy computer people who have figured it out so not to worry. We are very happy that you care enough to read this. Love you all.
Monday, August 5, 2013
Happy Anniversary To Us
Forty one years!!! How does that happen? Last year on this very day we were on the coast because the kids gave us a trip to Newport (That would be Newport, Oregon for those who might think we went to California). Right now we are in Newport WITH the kids. Amanda, George, Thomas & Gavin were coming here for a short vacation and Walt said he wanted to go so they stuffed us in and here we are. The two old people have more stuff than the four of them. Oxygen, drugs, special food, but Walt felt he could make the trip and so far so good. We were excited to get adjoining rooms at the motel. The little boys thought that was great fun to go back and forth. About the third time of slamming the two doors together we all figured that back fired on us. We got here about 3 p.m. The fog was already moving in and the wind had picked up but we (well, me and the boys) took off our shoes and put our toes in the soft sand. They were so cute feeling that for the first time. Thomas and I ran from a couple of waves, but when our feet turned red from the cold we had to give up. Poor Grumpy stayed in the car cause it was just too cold for his skinny body. For those of you that might not know Grumpy is the name given to Walt by Austin 14 years ago. It fits him well some days. We had a great dinner, Walt got to eat Mexican prawns and a piece of my fish without the chips and I took the breading off. I think I would be so sad to see all the good food and not be able to eat it, but he views this as an adventure and really wants to starve that Murphy.
I will post more after we get home. Just wanted everyone to know we are still in there fighting and doing pretty good. Must be those prayers. Thanks for hanging in there with us. Oh, and tthanks for the comments. Walt loves to read those best.
I will post more after we get home. Just wanted everyone to know we are still in there fighting and doing pretty good. Must be those prayers. Thanks for hanging in there with us. Oh, and tthanks for the comments. Walt loves to read those best.
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